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vampyress131 @ 2008-05-16T20:23:00

2008-05-17T01:24:04Z

i have no motivation to do anything lately.

vampyress131 @ 2008-02-09T10:09:00

2008-02-09T16:30:58Z

things are overall much better in life, because of:

1. having more control than i thought in my education class. i missed one day,freaked the hell out, and considered dropping it...when i went back the following week, i realized that i was totally overreacting, which was a good thing.

2. the northeastern gym: i now believe that it exists, and plan on starting there next week

3. money: i have a good amount because of the check that northeastern cut me

4. dieting: i finally went shopping for healthy/low calorie foods, and actually prepared it so it is as easy (if not easier) than constantly getting fast food/cafeteria food

5. fafsa: is complete, and i sort of manipulated it into considering me an independent (which i am legitimately on my tax returns, so whatevs) and will hopefully have zero expected family contribution

6. taxes: since i allowed to claim myself this year, i actually get money back...for the past five/six years, i have owed money.

7. being single: its actually a really really really good thing for me. now that im not constantly surrounded by boyfriends (or soccorro) men actually approach me. i dont have any obligations to the men that i see, and i like it that way. and i have so much more time for myself, which i never valued as much as i do now.

8. alone time: i used to constantly have to go out to be happy and stimulated. now, there is nothing i love more than doing boring/interesting/whatever things all by myself.

9. new car: my new car is damn nice. 2004 2 door chevy. i thought i would have to wait until i was 30 to have a fully functioning car. i love not worrying about little problems every single day with it, and i love having a nice sound system. road trip, anyone?

10. northeastern: i think that this school is a surprisingly good fit for me. i really like the variety of people and opportunities here. its not the best ever, and certainly not the best for art, but im not paying for tuition hours because of a tuition waiver through the art department, so its worth it in that sense, at the least.

11. being 21: pretty obvious why. im not an alcoholic now, but i love being able to do anything i want, save renting a car.

12. red hair: its back, and its frying my hair, but it really is me.

13. my grandparents: they are my saviors. thank fucking god for them.

14. no more sallys: thats right, i am no longer an employee at sally beauty supply and equipment. my last day was yesterday. it was exciting and terrifying all at the same time. i had been working there for two and a half years. i basically quit because my grandparents forced me to. they have been telling me to for about half a year now. they will compensate me for the pay, and ill help them with...you know, whatever.

15. no more bud: is it possible to be a pothead that doesnt smoke pot? thats basically how i feel now.

so life is pretty nice. trust me, the same fucked up things are happening to me (car crash, swallowing of lip ring, wallet being stolen, getting sick,actually having to deal with the whole dating thing,family shit) but i feel like there is a balance now.

vampyress131 @ 2008-01-28T15:44:00

2008-01-28T21:46:34Z

four months worth of updates?!

hell no.

life is so much better now. but so so so so so so so so so so much busier, too.

the end.

vampyress131 @ 2007-09-14T01:19:00

2007-09-14T06:22:26Z

ok so....

grizzly bear is an amazing band.

it reminds me of classical music. not like beethoven classical...but like ancient celts and druids classic. pre pentatonic scale. BUT. it is as if their music is built on an entirely different basis of how music should sound...and i love it so much...

it took me a while to appreciate this so much, but all good music tends to for me.

vampyress131 @ 2007-09-07T10:31:00

2007-09-07T16:06:03Z

so its about time i tell you guys about sedona.

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yeah, its beautiful. ive taken an extra day at work to have more money to set aside each paycheck...im not sure when would be best to go...either winter, or very early summer. anyway, im excited to be going, and even if it doesnt work out, ill have some good savings by then. my plan upon return from this trip is to spend the entire summer saving up for a place - i hate commuting to school.

there are some good job opportunities around as well...im not sure if they would work out with school, but there is an art instructor position that would look great on my resume, and probably pay more.

ive also decided which shows i was going to try to go to... metric, go team, enon, and broken social scene. im expecting 1-2 of them to not work out, but we'll see. NEW ENON ALBUM! new...lots of things, actually. i love music days.

also, water is great. i think the reason that i cant take decent shots is because im always sipping drinks...especially carbonated ones. but lately, ive been chugging water..and i feel better, am less hungry, and will be prepared for the occasional insanely-drunk nights.

vampyress131 @ 2007-09-04T21:59:00

2007-09-05T03:01:17Z

sick and sad.

school is 5/10

i HATE my online course. may just drop it.

thats all.

vampyress131 @ 2007-08-26T12:32:00

2007-08-26T17:40:41Z

1.

2. 21 tomorrow. if anyone is interested in getting some drinks in dpish area, let me know.

3. bridget, thank you for the suggestions. i did look into merton, and i really liked the way in which he was able to help others that sort of critical thinking and reflection from a different cultural context. i will probably look more into his writings after i am more comfortable with meditation in general. also, i find mantras easier to begin with than visualizations, thank you for the suggestion.

quick "normal" update.... life is way too stressful, always. im terrified of starting school. maybe i should write more here, now that summer is over. i miss lots of you. good luck with school as well.

vampyress131 @ 2007-08-11T12:57:00

2007-08-11T20:04:43Z

shows updated...ish.

9/25 Metric @ Metro
8/27 Ida @ Schubas
10/13 The Go! Team @ Double Door
10/26/07 - Abbey Pub, Chicago, IL Enon
10/27/07 - Abbey Pub, Chicago, IL Enon
10/11 - Aragon Ballroom, Interpol
10/21 - Pabst Theatre, Joanna Newsom
9/15 - Riviera Theatre, Rilo Kiley
9/12 - The Vic, Animal Collective
10/10 - Park West, Grizzly Bear

vampyress131 @ 2007-08-10T18:41:00

2007-08-10T23:42:53Z

meditation is difficult.

has anyone tried, does anyone practice?

i have NO problem deeply relaxing, but its the focusing of the mind that is difficult for me.

yoga seems to be an easy beginning for meditation, because its essentially meditation in action, and keeps me awake.

its been a loooooong time

2007-08-07T17:18:04Z

upcoming shows:

9/25 Metric @ Metro
8/27 Ida @ Schubas
10/13 The Go! Team @ Double Door
10/26/07 - Abbey Pub, Chicago, IL Enon
10/27/07 - Abbey Pub, Chicago, IL Enon

vampyress131 @ 2007-06-23T10:21:00

2007-06-23T15:24:02Z

i never post here anymore. its because i enjoy the instant gratification of myspace and facebook now, which is a terrible thing. i caught up on about half of the friends entries now though...

beth moy soccorro brian and i went out dancing a couple of nights ago. although overpriced and a bit scuzy, it was a fun time. it was my first foam party, which was a bit nasty, but worth the experience.

today i am getting a stereo put in my car, and i am probably going clothes shopping. there is potential for an awesome day.

i want to co-plan a potluck with jj sometime this upcoming week, if we are both free. maybe it should have a theme or something? ill post details when it (hopefully) pans out.

vampyress131 @ 2007-06-16T00:01:00

2007-06-16T05:01:24Z

damn mary shyne, this cake is sooooo good.

vampyress131 @ 2007-05-21T12:51:00

2007-05-21T17:55:34Z

the world seems to want me to like the smiths, and i JUST WONT GIVE IT THAT SATISFACTION.

i am leaving for door county early wednesday morning. im excited/overwhelmed about it. hopefully i will make lots of sub par work, and a few good pieces, and one great one.

i SHOULD be doing lots of pre-painting, but i havent done much art at all in the past week, worst artist ever.

i enjoyed the party last friday - except for the part where i felt hung over the next day and only had about 2 drinks all night. a couple people got reallllllly trashed and broke shit, but the rest seemed to keep it together, and everyone seemed to have a good time. i REALLY wish i lived on my own....so badly.....it was probably the best 4 days of the year.

PARTEA

2007-05-15T20:27:02Z

ok, this is the official thing or something.

im excited.

vampyress131 @ 2007-05-13T21:49:00

2007-05-14T02:50:48Z

hey, EVERYONE.

what are you doing this friday evening?

vampyress131 @ 2007-05-09T14:14:00

2007-05-09T19:15:35Z

DONE TAKING FINALS!

i have class tomorrow, but its "extra credit class". im so happy that summer is finally here.

vampyress131 @ 2007-05-04T10:28:00

2007-05-04T15:36:33Z

hey. i havent posted here in a while. im not sure why, ive been getting out of livejournal....

but ive been pretty busy. trying to figure out where im going to go to school...it looks like uic. its a cheaper option... and it has an art education program.

i would like to live closer to school in a year, though... i wish i was in a committed relationship, so i could buy a 1 bedroom place with 2 incomes (or 2 bedrooms with 3 people). OR.....it could be 2 couples in a 2 bedroom place. so please form lasting relationships over this summer so you can move with me into the city in 2 falls.

so what is the deal with school? are you all almost done? is anyone not coming home this summer? i have a week left... and im dreading it, because im going to procrastinate on my studying and paper writing.

everyone at my work is quitting or leaving, but im going to get a raise soon.

just out of curiosity...tom, are you alive? if you dont post a comment, im just assuming that youve been hit by a train in the city.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-22T17:58:00

2007-04-22T23:01:42Z

i had a very nice weekend, i did a lot of different things, and saw some amazing people. today is a beautiful day as well, i did most of my homework at work, left a little early, and took a second shower.

tonight i plan on going through my closet and finding out what happened to all of my "lost" clothes. i already found three important shirts without even trying. maybe ill watch dead like me, or catch up on desperate housewives...

AWESOME.

so, you guys should really post more.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-14T16:04:00

2007-04-14T21:04:15Z

so heres the deal:

getting to bloomington/normal friday at about noon, and leaving saturday late afternoon.

i dont know where to be dropped off, where im going to stay, what im going to do.

so moy/matt/brian, please post here so we can make plans and i can figure out where i need to be.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-11T15:46:00

2007-04-11T20:45:35Z

i fucking hate snow/rain

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-08T22:51:00

2007-04-09T03:53:29Z

heyyyyyyy do any of you want to go with me to this thing http://www.wluw.org/wluwrecordfair/index.shtml this upcoming saturday? i want to go pretty early... id like to leave at ten.

so what about it, broan/bridget/rachel/other people that are in town?

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-05T01:02:00

2007-04-05T06:03:32Z

i just saw b.j. novak on conan, and it was pretty funny.

im glad that there is an hour long office tomorrow.

lost didnt record tonight. i HATE that.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-03T16:12:00

2007-04-03T21:12:46Z

im naming my next cat mango.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-02T14:28:00

2007-04-02T19:34:20Z

According to my human sexuality book:

Men's fantasies are more active and focus more on women's bodies and on what they want to do with them, whereas women's fantasies are more passive and focus more on men's interest in their bodies.

interesting.

i was just thinking about this. when i watch porn, yeah, i suppose the guy is important, but i think that the girl matters much more. its how she responds to what is being done to her that is arousing, or what she is doing to the guy. it seems to revolve around the female for both sexes. is a woman gay for liking the girls reaction? is a guy gay for not thinking about the girl more than the guy fucking the girl? is everyone gay? yeah, i know its not a gay thing.

discuss.

vampyress131 @ 2007-04-01T23:04:00

2007-04-02T04:17:48Z

im refusing to let myself *really* study...ive been trying to since 2 or three this afternoon and ive gotten almost nothing done. and i have a big test tomorrow, and a quiz, and two papers the day after.

i wont get too upset about it, this isnt a normal thing, so whatever if i get a few bad grades....right? heh.

this past weekend was ok. the callahans were out of town but i didnt get a chance to take advantage of that really, which sucked. i saw blades of glory, which i thought was 8.5 funny.

i am a music downloading machine. it seems like every other thing i do involves music in one way or another. speaking of, ive been playing guitar every day this past week. i really want to buy a banjo, but i cant afford one right now... so i bought a baritone ukulele instead, for 19 bucks.

im really excited about this ten day door country art class trip thing. i never go anywhere, especially on my own. im going to be anxious that people are home for break while im gone, but it will be worth it.

i think i am officially lactose intolerant. i had TONS of pizza last night, and ive been dealing with severe cramps and craps all day long. yay!

my spring mix is taking a long time to make, mainly because i dont want to put any filler/cheater songs on it.

just 5 more episodes and im re-done with six feet under. its getting so depressing.

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